People have asked... so what are your goals for 2011? What do you want to accomplish? I already have the answer before they finish asking the question.... I want a child that I can actually raise.
People say... wow you are so strong! The truth is, I'm just like everyone else. It hurts. I'm tired of waiting. I know what I want and I want it now... but this is so out of my control.
At the same time, I can't help but feel so blessed. I have 2 babies in heaven that I don't ever have to worry about again. They are safe.
But it's just not fair... why me? why do I have to feel as if I've been robbed? It's not fair, but this is the life I've been given.
So I rejoice and I'm glad in it.
Why? How?.... I don't know. lol. but I do rejoice and I really am glad. I can't help but get giddy when I find out someone dear to me is "expecting", or that another person is about to pop and I want to be there when her little princess is born.
Well, I don't know why, but I felt compelled to blog my feelings and thoughts. They are very up and down, but I guess that's okay.
"It is what it is"- Blake Watson (facebook: Prayforblake)
This is my heart...
You really are so blessed. You have two beautiful children who are being taken care of by God. How awesome is that? They never have to feel pain or heartache.
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing mother. And while you haven't raised them outside of your womb, I admire you as a mother. I look up to you and strive to have as much peace and faith as you do.
I want so much for you to get to raise a baby because you are going to be one awesome mother.
Praying that this year you get your miracle.
I love you Rose..that song made me cry..because it is so true! We have to loosen our grip on EVERYTHING to grab hold to the one who is ALL things! The plans He has for you and Bobby this year are great..I can feel it in my bones! Thank you for being transparent and allowing the Lord to use you!
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